Comments on: Cranky

By: Courtney

Courtney — Thu, 28 Jul 2005 09:15:15 +0000

I love your journal: long-time reader, first time “poster”. Your trip to Japan really inspired me! Thank you for all the great pictures!
Moving is one of the toughest things in life, but it is usually only a short-term pain. Good Luck!

By: Noelle

Noelle — Tue, 26 Jul 2005 15:44:19 +0000

I love your journal…it is very inspirational to me!

By: sally jane

sally jane — Sun, 24 Jul 2005 17:05:22 +0000

Hi Christine.
I have been a long time frequenter of your blog – and I love it!
So often it provides the perfect little ‘pill’ for me as I set upon my day- or as I sit reflecting on the day, preparing for bed..
Maybe you do have as many people enjoying your site- maybe they’re just a little bit more quite! =)
So often it seems like you touch on the very same questions which are filling my head-
But I, personally have never left a comment before, because, to me, it feels as though nothing else needs to be said, you say it perfectly.
So please- keep on keepin on!
Surely this blog (although I’D dearly miss it!) is much more about you and your internal processes anyhow??
Take care
-Sally Jane-

By: melissa

melissa — Sun, 24 Jul 2005 15:46:43 +0000

please don’t stop writing! we are on opposite coasts but i feel so close to you with these journal entries. over the years we have experienced similar struggles, joys, tears, etc and now is no different. i think you have it all together and know exactly where you’re headed and you think i do…when in reality we’re all questioning, wondering…is this the right path, what if i turn left or right, will it take me where i need to be. please keep sharing your entries, you inspire and encourage me and i’m sure many others.

By: keri smith

keri smith — Sun, 24 Jul 2005 15:35:22 +0000

It seems m’dear, you have fallen into the dreaded comment trap. (I was going to warn you about it the day you put the comments up.)
Happens to the best of us. I too have (and still do) compulsively compare my comments to others. The thing that is so wonderful about this medium, is also the thing I despise…. feedback. On one hand it is amazing to have it given that our chosen professions require us spending long hours alone, it also gives me a reason to write regularly (you are now accountable). The downside is when we think too much about the audience and use it as a marker for our success, (this applies to books too, I also have been known to check my amazon stats way too much.) Ugh, I hate admitting this stuff. The worst outcome is that our writing becomes affected, catered, influenced by who is reading. It does not make for good work, but instead work that is contrived and inauthentic.
So if I am to sit with this feeling, why do I feel the need to compare? The answer, at some level I have a competitive nature, always striving to do great things, and I always want people to like me. This is an ugly truth that I do not like to admit to myself, in fact I didn’t even acknowledge it until this last year. At the root of it? At some level I fear there is not enough to go around, that other people are better than me, that I’m not doing it “right”. At some level I would like to control my own success, so if I can just know what other’s are doing…
But the real truth that comes out of the deepest knowing of my gut is this…
…that if I am able to go deeper into the stuff of who I am, and the things I need to say (instead of focusing all of the time on what other’s are doing), and send THAT out into the world, THAT is the good stuff, THAT is what people respond to, THAT is the root of success (whatever success is), radical, honest, uncensored, naked, unapologetic ME.
Fuck it.
THAT is why you are here. writing. living, dreaming, painting, showing us your blemishes.
THAT is why we love you.
you’re doing it.
I know for a fact that you will continue to create whether people come here to read it or not, (she says with a smirk).
that is what it means to be an artist.

By: Swirly

Swirly — Sun, 24 Jul 2005 10:54:18 +0000

My goal is not to be a celebrity, to be famous, to be loved the world over or to be put on a pedestal. My goal is to live an authentic life and for whatever I create – a painting, my career, my home, a journal entry – to be positive, inspiring and maybe even a little bit interesting and thought-provoking. I also want – above all else – to be honest. I appreciate so, so much the fact that I can be completely honest in this journal, share my weaker, “less flattering” moments and, in turn, receive more encouragement to keep going in this direction. Over the past year in particular I have learned the absolute necessity of being present in the here and now, and it is moments like this – like this particular morning when I am reading everyone’s comments – that feed me, lift me and inspire me.

By: shelly

shelly — Sun, 24 Jul 2005 09:39:04 +0000

Christine,I read your blog everyday.And I have your book. You are Awesome!

By: Leigh

Leigh — Sat, 23 Jul 2005 14:56:07 +0000

I love your blog ! I relate so much to all you are going through. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and moods. You are not alone.

By: Kerstin

Kerstin — Sat, 23 Jul 2005 14:02:25 +0000

Hi Christine,
Last week I changed my homepage to your journal!
Your “disappointment” in the perceived lack of feedback is understandable as you do put a lot of effort into your journal and what you write is often thought provoking and always engaging. I actually believe that now that people are able to leave comments you will get more with time and I am sure Alex is right in that your readership will grow!
As a distant admirer of your eloquent musings and great photos I hope that you won’t ever stop sharing your travels, be they physical or emotional, with us.
Whatever transition you are going through now and in the future, my impression is that one thing is for sure: you have found your authenticity and your own style. The blueprint is there and will only evolve and unfold beautifully from here.
“Did you ever see an unhappy horse? Did you ever see a bird that had the blues? One reason why birds and horses are not unhappy is because they are not trying to impress other birds and horses.” (Dale Carnegie)
Take care, Kerstin

By: pixie

pixie — Sat, 23 Jul 2005 09:16:09 +0000

hi honey. i’m sorry you are blue. i’m with alex, please let me see your range of real emotions rather than a tidy image of a sparkly dancing queen. i woke this morning with one word on my mind: expectations. ooh lordie how we do get all tangled amongst them. what could open if you allowed yourself to be imperfect you? i love sparkly dancing queen YOU! but i truly value imperfect whining you, because i get to witness your glorious process of moving through the things that challenge you. you are so valuable to me! if you had ditched this post, i would have to give you ‘what for’. keep transforming in your own beautiful way, butterfly. xoxoxoxo