Dear Christine, Please Eat Lunch
September 28, 2005
Fall has arrived. Taken in Solvang, CA. September 17, 2005.
I know in a way it is a good sign that I consistently get so lost in my work I lose all track of time, but I think it might be time to invest in a loud alarm clock to pull me out of my creative trance in order to ensure I eat lunch everyday. This is the second time this week I started working in the morning, and the next time I checked the time it was late afternoon. I love that I get so absorbed in what I am doing, but these end of the day exhausted headaches aren’t especially fun.
I am currently killing time until my killer Chinese food from Mao’s in Venice arrives. My fiancee is gone for the night, and whenever I am on my own at dinnertime one of three things happens:
1. I go out to eat.
2. I have my dinner delivered.
3. I enjoy a delicious bowl of cereal.
I know the basics of cooking and most definitely appreciate good food, but when it comes to being in charge of meals, I am pretty much worthless. Ask me to do a sketch or painting or even interpretive dance of a nutritious yet savory meal, just don’t ask me to prepare it.
I have been in a state of creative bliss this week, even though today I got a lot more frustrated than overjoyed with my painting. My decision to hire Andrea as a personal coach has been a wonderful catalyst – it is funny what happens when you actually spend money on something that is supposed to help improve your life. I don’t want risk looking like a total idiot, spending money on a coach but then continuing to have the same problems, so I’m all the more eager to make meaningful changes. I guess that means my real motivation is nothing more inspring than my own ego which, at this point, is fine with me. Whatever I can use to delve more deeply into my creative potential I’m game for. Whatever I can use to help me build a better toolbox for this next chapter in my life I am ready to take advantage of. So I say, "Welcome, Pride and Ego – come get comfortable!!"
I know Pride and Ego are happy to oblige, but at this exact moment Hunger is screaming wildly, wanting all the attention. Food has arrived. Time to enjoy another delightful dinner lovingly prepared by someone other than myself.
the only thing that is delivered in
crawfordsville is pizza! but tonight
i made chili. is is cool and raining
outside. it is a perfect nite for
chili. i lost myself today until 2:30.
but nothing creative, i was cleaning
closets and removing clutter.
but i really feel great!
Isn’t it funny that we feel embarrassed about ‘failing’ at something when we SPEND MONEY on it? We give that old dollar bill so much power.
I think most of us have such conflicting emotions about money…on the surface, we care so much more about other things…and yet we sometimes don’t care enough about money when it comes time to charge for our own work, to declare our own value, to value our own worth, our own contribution to this wacky universe…
(I linked to one of your previous posts in today’s post.)
Ooooh, pretty pumpkins! Autumn is finally here.
… a dog is also good for reminding you to take breaks … unless you like puddles in the house.
I remember reading Yanni’s book after I saw him in concert (I know … it’s not cool to like Yanni’s music, but I do anyway), and he wrote about how when he’s working in his studio on the post-production for a CD, he hardly sleeps and says that if not for people putting a plate outside his door, he would forget to eat. He just disappears from the world for weeks or months at a time when he’s working on a project. Part of me says that’s extreme, but another part of me is totally enthralled with the idea of being so engaged in the creative process that it literally ‘feeds’ you without the need for food.
… then again, reading about you waiting for Chinese to be delivered made my mouth water …
I think it is a good thing sometimes when I am so into things that I forget to eat (not necessarily good for health). But it is a reminder that I am doing something that moves me to the point of oblivion.
come to my house, I will cook you a fantastic meal. one of my favourite things is cooking for people I love.