Comments on: Still More

By: Abbie

Abbie — Fri, 18 Nov 2005 22:32:31 +0000

hey, this is the first entry i have ever read on your little blog but it almost made me cry. I feel so conflicted all the time and its refreshing to hear someone else talk about it. I find it so hard to know what ideals to hold onto and which ones can be let go of. i want to live life to the full potential, but sometimes i dont know what that looks like.
all that to say, thank you for being real. i look forward to continuing to read your thoughts because they seem rather close to mine, even though i cant ever express mine.
thanks for being real

By: AGK

AGK — Thu, 17 Nov 2005 12:43:10 +0000

It’s comforting to know…I don’t go through these thoughts and feelings alone.

By: marci lambert

marci lambert — Thu, 17 Nov 2005 07:54:23 +0000

ah, the family you have vs. the family you want. earlier this year i decided that my mother was never going to be the mother i wanted her to be (not that she is a bad mother — i just wish some things were different). i also realized that i’m certainly not the daughter she wishes she had. but it is hard to let go of expectations, isn’t it? i think very few people have the families they really want. and i think it’s even harder for creative people, who tend not to conform to society, to have their ideal families. maybe, because of our creativity, we want more. we want to reach deeper in all aspects of our lives. but the majority of people are happy to just get along.
i think you are doing a great thing by writing about this.

By: Marilyn

Marilyn — Wed, 16 Nov 2005 22:16:01 +0000

Just getting caught up…I’m reading most recent first, so forgive me if there’s backstory I’ve missed… Specifically relating to this post…acceptance is what comes to mind. I’ve struggled so very much in my life with wishing/hoping I could have my ‘dreams’…to the detriment of accepting my present reality…because it’s hard to experience enjoyment of the present moment if I’m resisting accepting what IS. As for your remark about family, I think that’s what I love so much about blogging…it’s given me a family of sorts…who DO accept me unconditionally…which is all the more remarkable since that family is comprised of ‘strangers.’ But then, life is nothing if not strange…

By: teahouseblossom

teahouseblossom — Wed, 16 Nov 2005 21:43:09 +0000

I do believe that..your last sentence, that is. We do control our own destiny to a certain extent. But things happen for a reason.

By: Enid Yvette

Enid Yvette — Wed, 16 Nov 2005 20:46:11 +0000

Life is change. Sometimes it’s good, sometimes it’s bad, but it’s never the same. I don’t think that a dream changing is a bad thing. I think it means that it is growing and changing according to who you are and where you want to be in life. I think you are starting to figure this out. Just continue to let it ride, then let it go, things will fall into place.

By: pixie

pixie — Wed, 16 Nov 2005 19:36:01 +0000

what a sensitive subject. i’m so sorry you are hurting about this. i hurt for you and for myself and for anyone who longs for more in their biological relationships.
another blow up with my dad tonite over this business/house deal and my heart is breaking. i am on the eve of having to tell him that because we can’t talk to each other nicely, we are going to have to move on. i know it will kill him. sometimes love just isn’t enough to make relationships function in a healthy way. this is what i seek in friendship and in my marriage-to know that the person i chose is one whom i can work anything out with. if we can trust and speak from the heart, speak the same language, i know that the union will last forever, or at least we will go down knowing we’ve tried everything. if only my parents and other family members whom i adore could do the same.
i believe everyone is my teacher, and i must try harder to know, to learn what it is some people are teaching me when they leave me behind…though it aches like hell, there is gold in there somewhere. convenient and trusting these relationships are not. i wish it could be different.
thanks honey, for being so vulnerable once again. you are a master at that and i value you so much for just that. i love you because you can GO there to the deep and murky place where the beloved/scary swamp hag with the oozing sores challenges us to ASK.
hug yourself for me. TIGHT.