Sometimes
March 30, 2009Sometimes you have to travel across an ocean, miles from everything that is familiar to you, from almost everyone you love most, to a place where one person lives, opens her home to you and provides a space of such safety, acceptance and mindfulness that it is not possible for your heart to do anything but break wide open.
Sometimes you find yourself sitting in a foreign land where the waves crash more thunderously and the wind travels more forcefully, where the color of the sky determines what your day will look like – adventurous trekking over farmland and forest or quiet hours spent examining all the intricacies of who you are, how you’ve become this, all the ways you’ve fucked up and soared beautifully and why you’ve chosen to live a life this committed to such intense self-awareness.
Sometimes you sit on the porch of a beach house in a town with a funny name listening to a piece of music, sobbing quietly as the birds flutter around you oblivious to the fact that your heart feels such a profound sense of peace that you think you just might dissolve into a million pieces of light right then and there.
Every journey changes us – every step we take away from our comfort zone is capable of shifting our perspective of the world and our place in it. This journey is no exception, and I will leave a part of myself behind when I return home, experiencing a sense of wholeness I cannot yet articulate, but in my bones tastes like marrow made of stars.
That is really poignant and beautifully written. Thank you for sharing.
Oh doll, i’m so glad you’ve had such a wonderful time… i miss you both so much xx
you have so beautifully described so much of how i feel about my homeland and i’m so happy you get to experience some of it and spend time with another inspirational and beautiful soul.
i miss those thunderous waves – they call to my heart
How beautiful. Thank you.
“marrow made of stars”…yummy.
in beauty,
gem
you had me at the pink house…
thank you.
grace
so beautiful. i often have felt that same way inside, marrow made of stars is totally it! it’s like your soul dancing within.
: )
I was so moved by your beautiful prose. Thank you!
I RARELY ever leave comments on blogs, but I have to say that, that was a BEAUTIFUL piece of writing! I so relate to what you are saying…especially this: and why you’ve chosen to live a life this committed to such intense self-awareness.
Thank you!
So beautifully written. I am happy you are finding such peace. Big hugs to you and M.
xoxo
It is so ironic to read your blog post today because yesterday I posted a similar reflection on my own blog.
It seems each time I venture out of my comfort zone, I encounter someone or something that illuminates a new layer within the prism of my soul. Afterward, everything I experience filters through that new layer and refracts into thoughts and perspectives I would not otherwise have had.
Am so glad you and M are having this wonderful time together! Big hugs to you both. xo
your writing is exquisite, love. i know what you mean, but you articulated it all so beautifully, you took my breath away. love xo
marrow made of stars…i’m bringing that one for lunch tomorrow. so delicately cherishable, those words. xox linda
this took my breath away.
xo
I can completely relate to what you are saying but could never put it so eloquently. What a beautiful perspective and one that I agree with completely. Lovely words…thank you.
Oh. My!
It seems like you visited my home back home in that country I love.
Beautiful post.
I read on down your blog, catching up after a busy time here in my world and it was … you went home and you wrote of it so recognisably.
Thank you. And you read like you arrived in safe hands to that beautiful soul who inhabits a space I often find myself envying.
Enjoy yourselves (as if I need to write that)
xo
How you are able to bring us to your doorstep so effortlessly. Beautiful.
I love this house! It puts me in the mind of my grandmum’s homes in Trinidad and St. Vincent! Maybe all island people have a love for color! This home would put me in such a creative mode, as I’m sure it does for you!
you be brave, sister
i love your passion for authenticity
I love your fearless pursuit of truth and beauty
I love how safe and gentle you keep your heart in midst of such volcanic adventure
You make me feel homesick for my own house! This is so beautifully written. You are amazing. Miss you now. x
The house, your words. Thank you for sharing. xo
sometimes….you fall upon a beautiful soul
who takes you under her wing and supports you gently, makes you laugh and shares so
much of her knowledge, her creative mind,
eventhough you live across the world.
sometimes….you find this person, always
blessed and thankful that you have her in your life
you miss swirly mean the world to me.
much love
k
Simply Gorgeous.
you had me at “thunderously”.
oh how i love you so.
how these words took my breath.
i am still waiting for it to come back.
mmmmmm.